yesterday we celebrate his birthday. happy? as usual. glad? cant really say so. but he end up kneeling on his knee (that goddamn knee) and apologized for what he has done. i mean, i shud b glad huh? but i cant really feel anything. but anyway, whatever it is then.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETHEART

THE HAIRCUT THAT REPRESENTS IT ALL

this is the shortest version, and it's the latest!
this is the a lil bit shorter version..

you guys decide it. in the last 8 months, i cut my hair three times. the longest version..
it represents what all women has agreed on=chopping d hair means that we r cutting all the excess emotional baggage from our life
isnt that true? i mean..it is with me

when life were so simple back then, i wish i had stop in my tracks and savor the moment. when it hit me in the face that simpleness might never want to be my guest again, it hurts so much that all of us wonder why we never stop short and thank god for all that we have. we always wish we are something greater, bigger, and bolder.

AND THOSE UP THERE WAS WHEN I AM 18 AND HAVE THE WORLD ON MY FEET

oh cibai..hari yg sgt bahagia? bahagia la sgt..what kind of confession is that?
i mean, oh well..if im really last resort for u, pe hal kau nk confess in front of so many people man? bangang. hati panas betul. de bf pun sama bebal mcm jamban. jamban elok sket dri kau agaknye.
anyway, i mean what d fuck u did that on d first move, while did u date me? huh? asshole. pg mmpus la sama ex kau, old fling, ex classmate n etc2....anyway, i'll be such freakin happy at curve, im goin to get over this heartbreak fast!. look at those guys there, they were so damn happy to have me back.
heh..this will be my happiest day on earth, STARTING this week. no, make it this MO..

im losing my mind, so do you losing me as well

as i liehere on my bed, one thing come down on me
he's losing me as well as my affection and love.
he didnt even care if i need that extra ttention he shudgive
all he's thinking is that, i'm going to be okay
oh, well..as i said. i'm always okay. now i'm okay on my own
and you are not included in this "my own life"
i'm sorry, dude. it feels heavy inside
but i aint goin to say anything
if it mean to be, it will. if it's not, who am i to complain?
i'm not one with the power to say stop
and i certainly doesnt hv it in me to say that i can change yourfeelings towards her, the ex.
and i wont even try
for what? to add moresalt onto this wound?
i hv been wounded more than once, and i'm determined, u are not going to hurt me again
that's for sure. so for now, goodbye heartache.
goodbye you. see ya when my wall ofdefense thickened up around me.