EPILOGUE

Don’t, she said. Her mother really likes you. You belong with her. And she took my hand and put it into hers. I swear, I can see that hurt flash for a moment across her face. But then she composed herself. That lovely smile that I never learn to appreciate spread across her face. The same smile that will be haunting me in my dreams. Erica took my hand in her tight grips and she release her hand. Good day, Jake. I hope you are well. And that hurt flash again across her face, before she turned around and walks away.

I feel like half of me went away with her. Erica took my face in her palm and try to get my attention. But all I can think is that how I would like to have her warm lithe body in my arms rather than Erica’s. when I look down at Erica smiling at me, I could feel anger boiling inside me. Idiot! I heard myself screaming in side my head. That’s the only woman that you should have defend. Not Erica!

No Erica, I cant do this. I sighed, taking a deep breath before continuing. This is a mistake, and I take full responsibility of it. I shouldn’t have tried to reconcile our relationship. It felt stupid, aint it? pretending everything’s alright when I don’t even have a clue to what I want with you. No. you are not my dream. Erica gasped at me. But, Honey…why are you doing this to me? You cant be serious. I gave my whole life.

That’s the thing, Erica. You are giving it to the wrong person.

But, Jake..i’m pretty sure you are the one I wanna spend my life with.

I’m not sure I can say the same bout you.

Oh. She sighed. This is all about her, right? That little tramp. She fumed.

But that little tramp is whom that tried her best so we can get back together! I fumed back to her

In that case, why don’t you just forget about her and try to make her happy by granting her wish? Erica countered back sarcastically. But then she softened. Jake, I do love you. We can make this happen. Come, I’ll show you how.

In that moment, I really wish it was her that is holding me in her arms. The satin smooth feels on my skin and the smell of rose milk. But I pushed Erica’s hands away. I’m disgusted with myself. I often gave in to my animalistic need and surrender myself between Erica’s leg. Little joy that I can get anywhere; only that Erica does it best.

I gather up my things and said my goodbye to Erica. This has got to end. I pushed my way out of her apartment’s lobby and found myself standing by the roadside on a wintry day. I put on my coat and find myself walking down the street.

Jake?

I look up and saw her coming towards me. She was fumbling around in her purse looking for her keys.

I sat on the sofa, staring straight to the kitchen. She’s making a pot of hot coffee. The dress she puts on showed off a lot more legs than I can remember. Glancing up from her stirring, she blushed when she realized that I have been looking up and down her legs like it has got to be the next best thing in life god has send to me.

Here you go. She handed me a mug of steaming hot coffee. Sorry I like it black. She grinned sheepishly.

It’s okay. I like it whatever way you like it.

What brings you here?

Erica.

Trouble in paradise? She arched an eyebrow.

No. we broke up.

Oh. She said, staring inside the mug. What happened?

Nothing happened. Just..

I put the mug down and took her hand in mine. I couldn’t live with Erica. i took her in my arms, and scoops her up.

Jake…she stuttered.

Shh…listen, I said. You are my life. I have been living in hell for the past few months. 5 months to be exact.

But, Jake..she..-

I silenced her with one kiss and she to get her rhythm back.

The satin smooth feels on my struggled skin makes me wants to have more of her. She moans when I kiss her sensitive neck spot and knotted her hands in my hair when I ran a finger across her back.

Jake, this is not funny.

I don’t find it funny too.

You know that technically I can always be your rebound gal?

No. it doesn’t work that way.

It does the last time I checked.

Last time. Not now. Can we just finish what we have already started?

Funny. Your ass. She said haughtily.

It works all the time.

It might be on Erica. not me.

I bit her bottom lip. You just have to put your trust in me then.

She stare dumbfounded at me. Cute, don’t ever try that on me again.

She gets up and sauntered back into her room. I can imagine her pulling off her work clothes one by one. She must be naked right now because she close the door behind her and I can catch a glimpse of her pulling those black skirt down south.

I’m not suggesting anything, but you need to get out of my house.

I nodded my head. After all, we have all the time in the world to get to know each other again.